A Dream by: Brenda McCann
I love it when my night dreams kick in and are part of what I am working on in my 'Self Development' = daily decision making' By the way, so called 'Self Development' now has a whole new meaning.
I love it when a plan comes together....
As per the 'Communion with God' online course, nothing I see is real, I am who I am and my experience is what I say it is, and, the meaning of everything is the meaning I give it. So I am free to be & do the Triad process:
1. See any situation I am aware of as an illusion.
2. Decide what it means.
3. Re-create my self anew.
This dream below relates to my own physical body health.
Before falling asleep I was visually running and jumping up to catch a bar and swing myself up on it in one motion - just like I did in the first grade astrally & physically. This time in time, however, I noticed the 1st and 2nd chakra's energy flow/Vibrational qualities while performing this visualization. It felt very sexual. I wondered if all the physical energy things I have done at that early age were that sexual energy? Right about here is when I actually fell asleep with an ever so slight thought about 'How athletes visualize their Game' as performing it perfectly over and over, and realizing that I too can do that with any skill I am working on improving in ((my experience of)) 'LIFE'.
Dream:
02/26/2003 4:17 AM ~ Brenda McCann
I found myself in a rather dark place.....
Everyone there is doing things in a w a y that I don't want to be or do. I notice the energy feel of the place and it is a place I call 'Slow-Motion' - so immediately - I realize that I am dreaming and this is 'my dream' without missing a beat.
I then get up and sort of slide rather than walk across the space to my right. The space is a combination of indoors and out doors all at once because it is an outside scene but I know I am heading for the exit door. There are people of all ages there and someone I recognize is sleeping along the right side of my exit route. Others are coming and going to and from 'somewhere' in cars. I am afraid the drivers might run over the persons lying at the side of the road, the same way I would protect animals from being hit by a car.
As I determined 'which direction was out' of the above PLACE, I began to move. I just barely skinned by 2 men who were suddenly standing in my path. Just like in the 'Matrix Movie' I bent myself to the left as I passed them without disturbing them or drawing attention to myself.
Right at the moment when I got to the exit door the whole scene changed as if I was seeing into a different dimension all of a sudden. A dark haired man who was taller than me but looked like Al Pachino was holding me from behind and fondling me sexually/making me have sexual sensations. For a second I almost lost my focus, which was 'To Leave'. Then I clicked into another dimension of the scene as realizing that this was my ONLY MY interpretation of /my illusion of / my version of, a devil that was hampering my progress in the choice & direction of my soul.
I was very quiet for a moment noticing 'how my feelings seemed to go along with such a presence' as if it were 'my idea' but I knew it was NOT my idea at this moment. This level of 'my being aware' felt rather drugged as if loosing sight of where I was going and what for. I pulled every speck of what I am together ((which was a very tiny speck at that moment)) and put my arms around my self, shut my eyes tight and said "NO" while jerking my body around to my right. Even though I 'felt' very physically weak & mentally foggy it worked and in a blink I was out of there!!
End of dream
I awoke celebrating this as the 2nd dream I've had about 'deciding' whose illusion is this anyway? since reading The New Revelations, by Neale Donald Walsch: Illusion vs. Truth Click Here for a NDW wisdom flash!!
I felt wide a wake so I bounced out of bed to write this so I wouldn't forget.
HERE ARE MY INTERPRETATIONS:
1st. I knew immediately that this dream was my version of the devil or a devil/the antagonist. The 'set up' of FAILURE, ie., of persecution or the thought that somebody wants to stop me from going where I AM going. I am very surprised that I still had that 'set-up active' in my personal patterns of LIFE.
2nd. Ah, I just flashed on the "Never let 'um get you. Just look at what 'they did' to me", Jes-us's comment at my age 5. Also flashing on my hysterical departure from the Wizard of Oz movie my age 5. And the energy loss due to giving the set-up that 'others' are doing something_'to you' is to loose command of your own LIFE, your own illusion, your own meaning. Walla! Loosing your own energy focus! Energy loss for me manifests physically as fatigue and exhaustion, emotionally as crisis or poor me, mentally as 'other's own, or the idea that 'others' can cause what I am feeling.
3rd. There is a whole 'nuther subject that we have not yet covered in the Communion with God course - that of whether to or not to 'respect' the illusions of others & whether to even see any illusion as 'another's'. Could it be that every thing I see and feel during the night or awake during the day is totally ALL MY OWN ILLUSION? (There is a major power trip in this thought!) IS this what it means to 'BE' the age of responsibility? Your comments on this are welcome: send dream comment to freo72003@yahoo.com
4th. This dream has to do with my physical condition due to the energy loss of assigning so much of what goes on - encountered by my awareness - as, someone else's creation/illusion/version that I DON'T agree with. The dream showed me that I AM down to my last speck of reality energy. Less than the size of a mustard seed I might add. And you could call that the 'last speck of reality' that I AM ~ the seed of my faith...to re-create my view of life ANEW.
5th. At this moment I ask the God Self that I AM to install all of the energy of ITS reality in me anew/NOW. Many vibrations are happening in the top of my Solar Plexus right now. I am breathing deeper now. Breathing here and now deeper and better than ever.
6th. I notice that my 'computer smart program' is correcting my spelling, typos, and caps or lower case right here in my Microsoft Word program as I use it. This is very cool! The thing about a smart program is it remembers where you go online & what you do within you own system. It then sees a pattern of what you are doing most of the time ((and or trying to do - as in my case spell English words and use them grammar`ically)). Then it corrects according to that pattern. As you can see if you are reading this log in a WORD program on your computer right now I have just made up another word = 'Grammarically. It is like Merrily in Merrily Merrily Merrily Merrily; Life is but a dream. It is related to grammar
7th. So, LIFE is not a matter of AGREEING with every person place or thing I encounter, nor is it NOT AGREEING with everything I encounter. It is not a choice between this or that either. It is about seeing relativity for what it is - a giant passel of every human's creation since the dawning of time. It is the way we imagined it was during our perceptions of what is - as we encountered what is. What Is being the actual existence here on Earth without the human versions put upon it? That is the question!
*My God we are in a massive overhaul! I really had no idea how massive this overhaul is until this moment. Also I had no realization that this overhaul has been going on the whole of my lifetime.
END of Dream: 02/26/2003 4:17 AM ~ Brenda McCann